So a few weeks ago, my friend who I haven’t talked to in a year, contacted me. She needed my address to send me something. I was a little puzzled because I wasn’t expecting anything. So after I sent her my address she set up a time to call me. We ended up talking for an hour one night and got caught up on each others lives. I was really nervous to talk to her because I hadn’t had much communication with friends. I’ve been hiding in my house the past year feeling embarrassed of my mental illness. After talking with her I felt this feeling of happiness, which I haven’t felt for a little while.
I went to the post office to get the letter she sent me. I assumed it was a simple Christmas card and was excited to see it. To my surprise I opened up the envelope and found a beautiful necklace. Earlier that day I had felt no hope. I had gotten down on myself and allowed my intrusive thoughts to consume me. When I saw the necklace and read the letter I began to cry. I have started feeling really lonely this holiday season. I know I have my family, but I haven’t had much interaction with friends. This simple thing my friend did reminded me that I have impacted lives. People do think about me. I’m not alone.
This Christmas I hope you can find peace knowing that you are loved and cared for. Always know that no matter how dark life gets there is always hope. I struggle everyday and sometimes I have the thought of giving up but you have the power to tell your brain who’s boss. We can’t decide what thoughts enter our mind but we can decide what to do with the thoughts. It’s not easy and it will take time. I’m still in the middle of training my brain.
I hope you all have a Merry Christmas and can take time to reflect on how amazing you are. You never know who you are going to inspire. Always remember, You Got This!!!
